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Love.

Love seems to be a popular topic on tumblr, and even though there are those who care enough to remind you to be patient, you can’t help but look at everything around you. It seems like when you least expect it, there is always something that pops up. There are always those friendly little reminders that you’re alone. I’m not being bitter… Okay maybe… Maybe I am. Maybe I just feel like it’s time for something amazing to happen in my life.

Maybe for once, I can truly be happy with everything I have in my life. As much as I’d like to say that I’m happy whether or not I have a partner, I can’t. As sad as it sounds, I believe it’s true. Everyone talks about it, you know - how they hate seeing couples around them. It’s a given. You get jealous, or if not, you’re reminded that you’re single. I just feel like for once, it’s time I receive something I deserve. I don’t mean to sound… Possessive? or Conceited? Or whatever it is you may think. But everyone is entitled to their own happy ending, yes?

I’m not a bad guy. At least I don’t think I am. I just. I… I don’t know. It’s times like these that I feel so lonely. I know they say it’s bad to want a relationship when you feel lonely, but I know I’d never take advantage of someone’s feelings just to cope with my own. I just want that feeling again. The feeling of a love that is finally reciprocated. Someone who would want me as much as I wanted them. I’ve never felt so alone. This type of loneliness is the worst. You know, the kind where you still have the people you love and care for around you, but yet there’s still that emptiness inside your heart.

It’s as if nothing can fill that void. It hurts, actually. Which is strange, if you really thought about it. You would think that if there was nothing there… There would be, well, what it was - nothing. Pain shouldn’t exist if there was nothing in the first place. Make sense? I don’t know. If it doesn’t, just know I’m letting my fingers type out what comes to mind.

The problem, though, is that I can truthfully say that I’m scared. I’m scared that I’ll get hurt again. I mean, everyone gets hurt, but we all know the pain caused by a significant other is a pain that can’t compare to anything else. But the strange thing is that I think I miss that pain, too, you know? Because when the pain is so real, so strong, then you know that you really care for them. And the thought of that, I believe, is scary. It scares me to think that someone could manipulate you in such a way. Ah.

I bet I sound stupid. I’m so complicated.

Is it just me? Or do some people feel like it will never find them?

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I didn’t mean it like that, i just meant I that I see you on Tumblr a lot of the time haha. I’m sorry D:

Ohhhh! Ahaha yeee. Sorry, I didn’t think of it like that. x] S’all good.

I should be less of a bitch sometimes. xD /hugssss. <3

Ahaha yee :D

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WOW, you would. I was thinking about doing this too. Fuentes, right? :3

Excuse me? What do you mean I would. -__- That was kind of a burn.

& Yee, it’s for Fuentes.

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